I will allow myself to be sad.

Just for a while and that’s it. I’ll stop feeling so bad. 

I’ve been trying to hold all this in for the past few days. I’ve been trying to find as much distraction away from it and I know it’s Christmas in less than 24 hours, so I figured before the festivities start, I want all these sad feelings out of my system so I can be able to tell myself “DON’T YOU DARE CRY. DON’T YOU DARE BE SAD. Don’t. Because you already gave yourself that leeway already”.

Yep. I’m okay.